So it’s been almost two months since I blogged. Lots of things have happened. Mainly my bipolar and the low swing I’ve been on and fighting. It’s been hard.
Since I blogged last time, I’ve gone through three med changes. Fist one pill was added. Then increased. Then one of the meds I’ve been on for quite awhile was increased. Then another pill was added (that one seems to be working). And now I’m cutting one out.
Damn it’s hard to live with this at times.
But as I said this new med seems to be working. I am blogging so…..
I never had thoughts of hurting myself. So that’s good. But the feeling of the world being so damn mean at times. Not anything in particular, just.. I don’t know how to explain it. But if you deal with bipolar or depression you probably know.
If not for my husband, I don’t know how far I would have gone down the rabbit hole. But it was far enough that it was hard at times to see the light.
I have bought stuff (lots of stuff) to make items for my Etsy store.
But I have finished a blanket to put up for sale in my store. Biggest part isn’t the making, it’s the stuff photographed and put in.
And the problem with that you ask. Rejection. Plain and simple. Will anyone really want to buy the stuff I make. Is it good enough?
Will someone buy it, look at it when it arrives and send it back?
It’s easy for me to come up with projects but making them to sell is the hard part. Making them is fun. But the thought of putting myself and my items out there for people to look at and judge me…
I don’t know how to get by it.
Some would say “just do it” but it doesn’t work that way for me..at least not yet. I have all of these cool things that I want to make, but too scared to do.
I’m going to try and make one small item every other day and work on my blankets every other day. Or at least try.
But which to start with? I’m not lying when I said that I have lots of ideas and stuff to make them with.
A couple ideas for little signs..
Wind chimes…
Embroidery wall-hangings..
A cool little wall hanging for the bathroom to hold towels and wash cloths. And the towels and wash cloths to go with it.
Oh I almost forgot about the flower holders…
Nikki, pick one and just do it you say… Easy for you to say.
Ok.. tomorrow I will do…
Make the windchime.
More tomorrow
Have a great day|night.